IS IT OKAY

 Is it okay if I hesitate before I give my point...and stammer when I speak up ..

Is it okay if I look in the mirror more than thrice,just to be sure ...

Is it okay if I walk into a room with my eyes to the floor...

Is it okay if I still tremble and shake when I hold the mic ...

Is it okay if tears come down when I hold my pen and notebook and my mind runs blank all of a sudden

I mean is it okay to be scared of life??

~Lilacmwesh🔥





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