Tales of Lilac

 I used to hear people say that if you love someone you give them the power to hurt you, deeply, And I thought, why would someone do that to themselves? Isn't that a form of self torture that you can just save yourself from ? I mean that is literally like you setting yourself on fire laying next to the fire extinguisher. So should I work with the concept that love is blind or is love just strong enough to bear all things ? Both concepts have an impact because yes you can love someone and see them beyond their own faults or mistakes . It means, that person is perfect even though no one is .Whereas you can love someone deeply enough to forgive them for everytime you get hurt you forgive them and still want them to be in your life ,only in a better way ,a more fulfilling way ,a way full of growth . These are two different paths ,which one would you prefer to walk through? Tell me in the comments 

……amen to the first of us, to the doers that never-said-die, who were told with ruby mouths that the city of dreams lived on a bigger castle than their legs could reach, to the unpretty,…..who had to stomach white laughter before they could stand up and prove: you cannot judge me I am unwriting the story you assigned me, I am worth something whether you want to see it or not  Amen to those who were told this meadow isn't made for people like you, who came with flowers or seeds or whatever it took to grow themselves a place in it, who dug their hands bloody, who sang when they were asked for silence, who danced when asked to sit still, who created when all others desired their distraction  Amen and move forwards, trailblaze even if it means flamethrowers, eat up the cake you deserve and keep cooking. When they bruise you, when they bend you, when they repeat that promise of ~nobody like you can do this~ take your vitamins, drink your water darling, and my love, my h...

 Is it okay if I hesitate before I give my point...and stammer when I speak up .. Is it okay if I look in the mirror more than thrice,just to be sure ... Is it okay if I walk into a room with my eyes to the floor... Is it okay if I still tremble and shake when I hold the mic ... Is it okay if tears come down when I hold my pen and notebook and my mind runs blank all of a sudden I mean is it okay to be scared of life?? ~Lilacmwesh🔥

                I hate it....  ....the way you are always right I hate it when you lie I hate it when you make me laugh,even worse when you make me cry I hate it when you are not around,and the fact that you didn't call Oh!not that you didn't,it's just how you never do ...but mostly,I just hate the way I don't hate you,..,.. not even close                 not even a little bit                 not even at all

 Have you ever found yourself in those situations where you are knocked down by something and standing up for yourself is the last option?? Not cowardice,but your intuition tells you that you can't fight back. There's just nothing you can do about it...... It's not new anyway, you knew this day would come,just the day and time that were not known to you. Been going through such a moment lately and just like the other times,I never fight back somethings. So like ...just listen,nod ,do not even cut their sentences,I just listen,after they done I wait for them to hang up. I never do it,it's just not me then ofcos you know that typa smile we give....and we MOVE and leave everything to time and the gods.....to me time is everything.....now enough with me,am still dealing with their echos daily in my mind but healing visit I hope. Those boring afternoons am scrolling through my phone with Sia's 'Unstoppable' in the background,then I stumble at this post on a frien...