I'M TRYING 😞
' Fortune favours the Bold ' or so they say. I've been clinging to the saying since the year began you'd think my life depends on it. Fortune, Bold...... easy words to say, right? Whoever came up with the idea ' Baada ya dhiki faraja ' must have been the most delusional cunt to ever breath. Infact, they can have my spot in hell for free...... Is the former necessary? Ain't the latter the goal after all?! Why do people normalize wins and success as some form of honourable trophies for suffering? Do we have to suffer first to rejoice later? For what? To prove a point? Ridiculous!!!! Chaotic chants everywhere.... I've been staring at myself in the mirror for minutes in the morning. There's something black in my left eye and I can't seem to remove it. It's itchy, it's burning, for the first time my girlfriend is not here to help me. Finally I have to wash it out but my vision is blurred. I look like hell and a smack of self-pity ...